"today is my birthday and I get one every year, and sommedddaayyyy hard to believe but I'll be buried six feet underground..." -no doubt, six feet under, return of saturn
I can't believe I am 21. It is both a scary and exciting thought. Take me back to my childhood. When I think of a 21 year old I think of independence, freedom, "grown n sexy," but I don't know if I am ready for these things. Independence: Well I am definitely not financially independent... does a 21 year old pay all of her own bills? Can a 21-year old budget her money? I sure as hell can't. I am living and spending beyond my means and it's keeping me in debt. lmao. Freedom: I am almost there... this past year has really been a testament to my freedom. getting free. living free. not being restrained by certain people in my life and certain fears and uncertainties that I cling to. I think true freedom is about escaping the constraints and preconceived judgements of one's mind. free your mind & find peace of mind, as Lauryn Hill says. Here is another quote I love pertaining to the notion of being free by Jenyne M. Raines author of Beautylicious.
Grown n sexy: well not to toot my own horn but toot. toot.
The start Ramadan ironically falls on my birthday and so most of my first day as an "adult" was spent hungry, cranky, and irritable. But it was truly rewarding to have kept my fast for the entire day and I intend to do so for the next 29 days.
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rachey roy, spring 2010
pop of color
happy belated birthday...
ReplyDelete21 is a good year!
thanks love!
ReplyDeleteprops for quoting one of my favorite songs from my favorite no doubt album.
ReplyDelete21. i feel you on so many levels. I am not hardly independent. It may be possible for 21 year olds to do it, but to do it while trying to get educated at the same time? A feat and a half and we're lucky we don't have to really worry about it. Whatever. Forced independence is coming much too soon.
Freedom. Something I know I need to work on. I could be, I nearly am in every way that matters. But I often attach myself to people who only upset me. Kudos to you babe for having your shit together.
I cannot wait to chill with you when I get back. Unfortunately that reunion will have to be put on hold until January. Please stay involved in @. I know you were not too enamored when you left. But it is different, it's improved, and it needs your sass.
xo